i've been a really really bad gf for the past few weeks.
i've been throwing tantrums, and suddenly becoming gloomy and cold towards tingwei for no good reason, at least nth tt's reasonable.
i feel petty thinking back on those things):
i think today was the last straw for him,
he suddenly became quite cold towards me and honestly, i was scared, but not so much cos i was still feeling unhappy.
so, we had a talk(:
a v good talk, thrashing good talk.
he asked abt wad unhappiness i had with him.
and i wasn't too sure at first, but eventually, he got it out of me.
sharon..
he said i shouldn't compare myself with her, and she's totally out of his life alr, if he ever meets her on the street, they'll probly act like strangers to each other.
which i felt, was sad..
like you had sth gg on, then not-so-suddenly it's not there liao and you totally cut off all ties with each other.
somehow, it's this strong feeling, even if it's dislike, that makes me insecure ba, like somehow, he cnt let go.
but he assured me, that i dun have to worry abt her at all, that everything's over between them and tt there is NO NEED for comparison between us.
he doesn't do tt, and so shouldn't i.
he said sth that struck a chord in me, if i keep on being bothered abt her, and comparing myself with her, i may eventually become like her, behave like her.
and i dun wanna be compared to her in that way><
'i want a shumin so there's absolutely no need to compare!'
<3
to quote him,
'there is never a happy ending from being unhappy, so as proud economics students who are rational, we should always not become unhappy:)'
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